Fourteen Days...

I just cannot believe all this is becoming real; that in fourteen days I will be on a plane to Beirut, Lebanon for the next few months. This will be the first time I am traveling by myself on an international plane (ooh man). A trip that will be fourteen hours in flight, however about twenty four hours of travel.         
         The exact route will be from Miami International to Paris, France nine hours, and then Paris to Beirut five hours.  (ooohhhh man)
The other day, I read my horoscope and it was so on point to my current situation I will/have adopted it as my new mantra, it stated:


Do not waste your time trying to explain others why you want to go off and do something out of the ordinary, because you don't know yourself. Sometimes you just have to follow your instincts, so trust them and act.


Of course, I am elated to be going, to have this once in a life time opportunity, I just dread saying good bye to all my loved ones. However, it is a part of life, blah blah blah and I understand that, but it does not make it any easier. Let's just say I will be drowning in tears because I have no idea what I am going to do without my mom, she has been my rock so much these past years and I come to her with everything. On the other hand, I have come to realize how much of her is in me, and I knowing that I know I will be fine. 


Switching gears.... (I am all over the place tonight, probably because it almost 4:00 am)
One new development:  I possibly could be going to Qatar to stay with my brother. I stoked about that because I really want to try to travel as much as I can when I am in Lebanon, trying to get as much out of this experience as possible.   


So as of now, I will be seeing three different countries: Lebanon, Qatar and France (on my way back home, I will be spending two weeks in Paris :), so pretty much, if I manage to loss any weight in Lebanon, which I plan on doing, will be gained through French Bread......well worth it, I say.... haha


Let's see if I can add more destinations.....

Thirty Four Days...

It is crazy to believe that the next seven days I will be leaving my job. I will be leaving ACTS Retirement Life, a place that I have been employed since I was fifteen years old. A community, St. Andrews South, where I literally and figuratively grow up in. Truly, I believe I would not be the person I am today without that job; without meeting the people and working with the people that I do. That I did.

In thirty four days, I will be leaving all I know, all I have ever known.

In the next thirty four days, I am traveling to Lebanon in order to get back to my roots, to establish myself in a foreign country in hopes to feel connected. Being a first generation American has been complex, I was too foreign for Americans with my kebab and my tableah; and on the other hand, I was to American for the Lebanese because I did not know the native tongue or any other tongue then English.

I have decided to take this homage to Lebanon in order get to my roots, something that I have forever longed to be a part of. As the years pass by, soon what will be expected of me is a career, marriage and children. But before all that pressure, I want to take this leap of faith. To, in a way, stop my life and jump head first, to stop all the thinking and planning and just live, live for me. So when I no longer a "me" but a "we," I am able to pass down my heritage through my eyes because I was able to live it.....all in thirty four days...

<3Sabine